Baby Steps

I wanted to post a quick note saying thank you to all of you who left encouraging comments and emails regarding my previous post Directions Please?. I love that you are supporting us, comforting us, and praying with us. We just can not express how grateful we are to the body of Christ. To you, who love the Lord, and have the same ending goal. We are thankful, and we are blessed. And today I feel uplifted, refreshed and encouraged. Ready to take another step. Because we are not alone.

God is telling us to follow him. But he never promised it would ever be an easy road. In fact he said it would be quite the opposite. I think that it is easy to assume that everything is going to fall into place the way we want it to based on our "obedience". That isn't who God is. That is not the God I love. And I really don't want to live my life under that assumption.

I long desperately to obey God. I desire in everything I do to be pleasing to Him. I want to give Him everything. Everything. I want my life to glorify Him. These are just words. But they are being tested. I pray that we will be found truthful and trustworthy.

And if that means waiting. And waiting. And more waiting. I will wait. As a family we will wait. We will fight for God's calling in our life. And we will lay down everything to obey Him.

Obedience is not based on circumstance. Faithfulness is not based on circumstance. Love is not based on circumstance. During this process I have often felt like a little child who is learning how to obey. I hear my daughter's voice in my head as I talk to God. " We will obey BUT such and such is not working out." or "I will obey, just let me do this first." or "But God it is just too difficult- you are asking too much."

To obey means to obey. It's not easy. It will never be easy.

And so we continue to walk.

This weekend I will mail my application to become an American citizen that will grant me the freedom to leave the country whenever I want to, for as long as we need to.

And hopefully soon we will have formed the dynamics of our support team state side. Please pray with us that the right people will be placed on this team.

And we are shooting to do a survey trip in the end of August to Brazil. Making our take off goal January 2009 more of a reality. 7 months.

Crazy.

But totally possible.

In a weird way it feels good to be crazy. To be trusting when all things tell us it isn't possible. Or that we are dreaming too big. And that we aren't following the norm.

Because instead we are following Him who is telling us to keep walking.

I didn't anticipate so many others walking with us. But God knew we needed you to complete His vision for our lives. And so there you are. Thank you. We pray and hope that we are as big of a blessing on your journey as you are on ours.